Bed of Lies (Bed of Thornes Trilogy Book 2) Read online

  Contents

  Title

  Copyright

  Prologue

  Chapter One

  Chapter Two

  Chapter Three

  Chapter Four

  Chapter Five

  Chapter Six

  Chapter Seven

  Chapter Eight

  Chapter Nine

  Chapter Ten

  Chapter Eleven

  Chapter Twelve

  Chapter Thirteen

  Chapter Fourteen

  Chapter Fifteen

  Chapter Sixteen

  Chapter Seventeen

  Epilogue

  Bed of Thornes Trilogy Book 2

  By Angel L. Woodz

  This book is fiction. Name, characters, businesses, places, events and situations are all products of the author’s imagination. Any resemblance to actual persons, living or dead is purely coincidental. The author makes no claims to, but acknowledges the trademarked status and trademark owners of the word marks mentioned in this work of fiction.

  Bed Of Lies Copyright © 2016 by Angel L. Woodz

  Bed of Thornes, Book 2

  Cover Art by J.N. Sheats: http://www.jnsheats.com/

  All rights reserved

  This book or any portion thereof may not be reproduced or used in any manner whatsoever without the express written permission of the publisher except for use of brief quotations in book review.

  First Printing, 2016

  She's gone. I write to her on nights when the thought of her tortures my dreams... hoping to somehow reach her with my words. The poems I write replace the song lyrics I once wrote before she took over my being. She has consumed my everything. She is in my mind, my heart, my soul. She is my life. - Adrian Montez

  I made a sacrifice to dedicate my heart to you

  and now you leave me young, sad, and blue.

  Something told me this would end soon

  but I thought the day I reached the moon.

  I made a sacrifice to dedicate my trust

  and now I get the feeling there is a must.

  Why would you treat me like you do

  after I made this sacrifice to you?

  How can you deny me,

  Something that is so true?

  Our friendship is worth the world to me,

  But my dream is to be close to you.

  We support each other endlessly,

  Giving hope through thick and thin.

  But my heart bleeds constantly to be near to you,

  Whispering the word, When?

  I gave you a path to my heart,

  And on it you certainly found your way.

  Now lying in my spirit,

  I dream of us every day.

  And it’s the mystery that lies within you,

  Your soul I wish to be near.

  But as for now I will continue loving you,

  Quietly remaining here.

  Like a lion with no mane, I have lost my pride.

  Loneliness is driving me insane, still you're not by my side...

  A rock in the middle of the ocean that waves continue to erode and ride,

  I'm stuck, I have no motion. Still, you're not by my side...

  I exist, I do not live. You lied and I cried,

  When all I ever did was give. Still, you're not by my side...

  And yet I persist, never wanting to give up.

  Life is empty.

  Seeing you - sunshine after rain.

  Sitting beside you - happiness defined.

  Holding your hand - the world is non-existent.

  Looking in your eyes - my heart smiles.

  Your warm hugs - safety, security.

  Your tender touch - I have yet to discover.

  The sound of your voice - my mind soars.

  Kissing you - my heart screams your name with every beat.

  Your love - hungered and unsatisfied.

  My unfailing love for you – MISUNDERSTOOD.

  I'm hurting inside, you can't see.

  All my friends think it's just me.

  It's just me, life is hard.

  They say move on, that I doubt.

  Why do I go on? Encouragement, hope maybe.

  That I don't know.

  Maybe I'm cared for, maybe I'm not, but I hope.

  I'm still here, but I want leave,

  just because you weren't there for me.

  A single tear runs down my cheek slowly running red.

  A river of pain yet remains leaving my hopes for dead.

  Though still I stand, the blood stains my hands.

  And slaughtered pride falsely resides within my battered mind.

  You blind me and confine me from my fading life.

  I hate you, as I dream of you, I die a tortured death.

  I'll hate you, for I love you, until I draw my final breath.

  It's night or day? That's moon or sun?

  Well, anyway, I have to run.

  I see the tears. Don't cry, my eyes.

  I feel my fears, I feel them rise.

  I have to go, I know it now.

  Let's end this show, just tell me, how?

  Relax, forget, Love's just a bird,

  She dies like that, Without a word.

  Words left unspoken, lost somewhere in time.

  Visions of yesterday remain in my mind.

  Silently I cry, for my thoughts I must hide.

  Time gone by, feelings denied.

  Why must love end with such pain and sorrow,

  for the love that we shared filled with hope of tomorrow.

  How can we destroy the lives that we touch

  and continue to say that I love you so much.

  Could it be that with love we create our own Hell?

  Breaking the hearts of those that we tell?

  Love you are given, a price you must pay...

  you will be broken, your love thrown away.

  I don't think you knew all the thoughts of you in my head.

  All the things I would do for you.

  It's like a drug taken before bed.

  Crying, looking above, killing me slowly... wishing I was dead.

  Every time I close my eyes

  I think of you and all your lies.

  You played me from the very start,

  took advantage and broke my heart.

  You never meant a word you said

  you just messed around with my head,

  you hurt me in the strongest way

  and in my heart this pain will stay,

  at first I thought it was meant to be,

  but all it is, is misery.

  The things I'm afraid to say,

  Feared by the reply I may receive.

  I have no sense of direction,

  Please tell me where to go.

  Not by myself, only with you.

  If you could understand,

  Thoughts I've thought,

  things I'm afraid to say.

  What would I do to be with you...

  Anything, anything,

  the one word I am afraid to say.

  So don't call me,

  Allow me to sit around thinking it's over.

  Take the knife and pierce my wounded heart,

  Making me suffer more than ever,

  But still taking me out of this pain called love.

  I thought you were my Angel

  But Angels only fly

  They don’t yell and walk away

  I thought you were my Angel

  Until that last day

  When you told me it was over

  There was nothing left to say

  I thought you were my Angel


  I gave you all my heart

  How was I supposed to know

  You would leave me torn apart

  I thought you were my Angel

  But Angels never lie

  They don’t walk away

  Leaving you asking why.

  Once more in a life time,

  one time with you,

  nothing so good could ever come true,

  all I want is one gentle kiss,

  cause I love you and it's you that I miss.

  To the one who got away

  Permanently clouding my days,

  There's just one thing left to say,

  To the one who I didn't know

  If my feelings would ever grow,

  There's just one thing left to show,

  To the one who was always there,

  But at times it seemed like I just didn't care,

  There's just one thing left to share,

  To that girl who taught me how to love

  All things in life just because,

  There's just one thing left to solve,

  My heart and soul were always with you,

  And though it's too late, I still want to say I love you.

  I wish I could tell you how I feel,

  My love for you is very real.

  It will never bend,

  It will never break,

  You are my piece of fate.

  Why do I cry over something so great?

  That is something I can’t calculate.

  If two never becomes one,

  My heart will forever be done.

  When you look me in the eyes,

  It makes me want to cry.

  Because I know you’re not mine yet,

  Trust me; my heart isn’t letting me forget.

  You are my sunshine,

  I want you to be mine.

  Walking alone, I see a shadow on the ground

  My heart pounding, turning, the shadows gone.

  As the winds blows, I hear your voice.

  Looking around, you are nowhere to be seen.

  Closing my eyes, I feel the heat of your touch.

  I feel your breath with the graze of your lips.

  I jump at the feel of your fingertips.

  I open my eyes and I cry...

  You are gone, just a sweet memory.

  I hope it's not too late to tell you now,

  But I know that it's late,

  And the chances of you feeling the same are small.

  I'm sorry I didn't tell you sooner.

  I'm sorry I was too blind.

  Too scared to see how much you truly meant to me and still do.

  There isn't a day I don't think of you and not a night I don't worry.

  For things to go back to the way they were before,

  For us to go back to the way we used to be.

  There isn't a star in the sky I haven't wished on

  To make things right again...

  To make you come back…

  I hope it's not too late.

  Thousands of pictures pass through my mind

  Laying in a soft bed you left behind

  Our world so close yet so far

  Memories of laughter and a deep pain

  Slow tears every night I cry

  My life you slowly drained

  Remembering as the days slowly drift by

  I can still feel your warm embrace

  Praying every day you are happy and well

  Every day I slowly forget your face

  Deliver me from this lonely hell.

  Friendship takes me over

  With her soft beautiful hands

  She has a face of an angel

  And huge emerald eyes that stare at me

  She moves around me so quick yet so graceful

  Sometimes I feel that her heavenly white light will blind me

  I try to close my eyes but she won't let me.

  She whispers softly telling me

  "you won't get hurt this time."

  I listen and she takes me into her grasp as we go through our ups and downs,

  I feel as if I'm flying without wings.

  When I look at you I see light,

  light shining above me, I feel like I’m in heaven,

  but ever since you left,

  I see darkness all around me.

  I just want to say: please, come back,

  you are my light so I can see, but I know you moved on,

  but I’ll be here waiting for you to come back

  until the end of time.

  Dark night draws closer still

  Black ice melts on scarlet velvet

  Ever closer to unwanted hearts

  The night a sheet of dark black sounds

  This is my heart a beaten mess of untangled love

  Today was a sad day, all I saw was hate in my eyes.

  Just for you to say a good-bye, I don't understand you.

  If love is blind, then why do I see you?

  All you have to do is look in my eyes,

  There you will find all your lies.

  Space embraces galaxies,

  amid speckled white gold.

  Onto darkness void splendor,

  stars bending, then fold.

  Comets hurl between novas,

  portraying timeless dance.

  A million years passing,

  with each moment, a new chance.

  Escape swift beyond light,

  as Mercury streaks from above.

  What good is time never ending,

  if one second without love.

  At times it’s like my heart doesn’t belong to me

  It’s like it’s being held captive by the old love,

  The one who got away, the one I’m still hung too,

  Trying to forget is one thing I think I’ve accomplished,

  But at night when all is quiet and my mind wanders,

  I think of her, the times spent together, the firsts, the lasts,

  The never will happen again.

  I found the pieces of my broken heart,

  the one you broke when we grew apart.

  I tried to fix the pieces one by one,

  but like Humpty Dumpty, it just couldn’t be done.

  Close guarded secrets lie in my broken heart,

  secrets I’ll never share with you,

  as now we're worlds apart.

  The weeks, the months that we had shared are now all in the past,

  They had disappeared all too soon, they passed us by so fast

  I'll never love another one as much as loved you.

  I love you then,

  I love you now,

  and in the future too.

  You'll always be the one for me.

  It's been two months since she left me all alone here in Dallas. I've hated every minute of it and I miss her more with every second that passes. Everyone that knows me probably thinks I'm the biggest hopeless romantic chump that exists. I can't help it, she's got a hold on my heart and I'm the fool for thinking that she'll ever really give a damn. I doubt that I'll ever understand why she made the decision to leave that day, even after telling her how I feel. I guess I just don't want to believe that she doesn't care about me at all. There has to be more to it than this. It's not that I'm not happy for her furthering her career... I am. I just want to be able to feel that happiness along with her and it's like she's afraid to share her world with anyone other than herself.

  I've called her probably a thousand times by now, but she never answers. I know, I should take the hint and move on. I've tried to a few times but it doesn't work so easily when you're madly in love with someone. Something tells me to never give up, so I keep waiting. I just don't know how long I can handle being without her. I frequently speak about Veronica with Jenna, but she says that she never wants to talk about me when Jenna tries to bring up the subject. Mason, Jenna's boyfriend, and I have become really close friends in the last couple of months. I try to not bring up Veronica const
antly when we hang out, but it's not very easy. Though we only had a short time together and she wanted my cock more than she wanted me, life hasn't been the same without her in it.

  Today I have the bright idea of sending her a picture of the one thing she does love. I've emailed her dozens of times with no response as well, but maybe this will get her attention. I pull down my pants and open the hole of my boxers to take a picture of my erection on my phone. This just may be the most immature approach to getting a reaction out of her but I've already used up all other strategies, besides taking my ass to Paris and that's my last resort. I feel like going there to find her might push the boundaries, like I'm invading her personal life, and I already know how she feels about that. I upload the 'dick pic' to my laptop and compose an email. I hit send without hesitation. The subject line is to the point: Come on Veronica, you know you miss him... he sure misses you.

  Hopefully I'll get a response by the time I get off of work. I get dressed and head out to Blank Canvas, a job that's been hard to keep since she's left because it reminds me of how we met... but I have to do something with my time and finding a new job isn't anything I want to bother with right now. I haven't been doing any shows in the last couple of months. I can't bring myself to sing songs about love, they mean nothing without the biggest inspiration in my life. While she's out pursuing her dream, I'm completely losing sight of my own. Fucked up, I know. To think most women assume that men don't really know how to love, what a joke. We love just as hard, if not harder. Showing it correctly is where we tend to fail. Look at my situation, I'm in love with a heartless woman.

  I stop to grab breakfast on the way to work and run into the doctor that Veronica had the accident with the day after her and I first met. I try to ignore him but he makes his way over to me. Suddenly I'm forced into conversation with a man that I could care less about talking to right now. He sips his coffee before he opens his mouth to speak his slithering words. I'm not sure what puts me off about this guy, but I don't like it to say the least.

  “Adrian, right?” He asks with an ugly grin on his face.

  “Yup. Surprised you remembered.” I'm short and blunt with him.

  “How's things been going for you since Veronica left Texas?”

  Is this asshole for real? “How do you know she left?” I cock my eyebrow in defense mode.

  “Why wouldn't I? She's done big time projects for me over the last several years. We've always had a tight relationship.”

  “I forgot, you were her client. Not much of a relationship.” I shrug in dismissal of his comment.

  “I suppose what you had with her is considered one? Besides, it's not that I was her client, I still am. Which brings forth the second reason that I know she left.”